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Friday, April 6, 2018

Marianne's Memory by Winona Kent



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Marianne's Memory



Historical Time Travel Romance
Date Published: March 2018

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Marianne's Memory is the third novel in Winona Kent's accidental time travel / historical romance series, featuring Charlie Duran and her 19th century companion Shaun Deeley.

A Beatles badge from 1965 accidentally sends Charlie and Shaun back to London at the height of the Swinging Sixties, where they're mistaken for KGB spies and subjected to a terrifying interrogation.

Rescued by top-ranking MI5 agent Tony Quinn, they soon uncover the details of a child born out of wedlock to Charlie's mum and the uncomfortable truth about Charlie's dad's planned marriage to selfish socialite Arabella Jessop.

Further complicating their journey into the past is Magnus Swales, an 18th century highwayman turned time-travelling assassin, and the timely arrival of William Deeley, Shaun's father, who's been persuaded to leap forward from 1790 in order to save Tony from Swales's deadly mission.







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CHAPTER 22

Friday August 13, 1965

Stoneford

Charlie couldn’t find Mr. Deeley.

She’d gone back downstairs with Justin and had walked with

him to the drawing room, where the party was now in full-swing.

Arabella, in her blue silk pyjamas, flitted between little gatherings of

people, some standing, some having made themselves at home on

the antique sofa or on similarly-upholstered armchairs.

“Buffet in the dining room!” she announced. “Two chefs,

darlings! All the way from London! And we’ve got a lovely

marquee tent set up outside for dancing…Giles’s band’s come to

play for us!”

Giles himself was lounging in a deep armchair beside the

fireplace, wearing a black velvet suit, with a navy blue shirt and a

purple brocade tie, surrounded by admirers: three impossibly-thin

girls with lavish makeup and long, straight hair who might have

been models; a bearded gentleman in a pink fur coat who was

describing his latest project—an art installation involving a square

block of concrete on top of which he’d placed a bent fork; and a

young man with a pudding-bowl mop of hair who looked

uncannily like Brian Jones from the Rolling Stones.

The air in the drawing room was filled with the smell and haze

of marijuana and hash. In another corner sat a large woman in a

flowing kaftan and sandals, strumming an autoharp which she held

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to her shoulder like a child needing to be freed of wind. She

seemed to be entertaining no one in particular, and yet an audience

was beginning to gather in front of her as they were introduced to

one another.

Arabella was in full hostess mode, dragging Justin into their

midst.

“Darling,” she said, to a distinguished-looking gentleman who

appeared to be someone who did something important at the BBC,

“do meet my lovely Justin…and of course Portia—Lord Wintle’s

daughter—”

Lord Wintle, Charlie recalled, was a British ambassador who

was posted somewhere that was in the thick of a coup. His

daughter had a drink in one hand and a cigarette in the other and

was wearing knee boots and a see-through knitted dress that clung

to her lithe body like plastic wrap.

“Charmed,” said Portia, introducing, in turn, her friends Binky

and Pierre—Binky being the daughter of an existential poet serving

a sentence in prison for setting fires, and Pierre the son of an

American actor who’d been blacklisted for being a Communist and

had fled to England, where he’d found work as a talking milk bottle

on a children’s radio program.

And still, no sign of Mr. Deeley. Or Charlie's mum. Or Tony

and William and Astrid.

Charlie turned away in frustration and negotiated her way

through the pop stars and the adult children from titled families

who were chummy with the Boswell-Thorpes, the glammy

socialites dripping in diamonds, the boutique owners and the

clothing designers and the actors and actresses and a fellow dressed

all in black who was taking candid photographs of everyone

without their permission because they all secretly longed to be

featured in one of his fabulous avant-garde exhibitions.

She found the servants’ stairs behind the breakfast room and

went down into the cellar, thinking she might find them there. But

the cellar seemed to be mostly abandoned, with all of its doors

locked. Even the big 19th century kitchen, which in 1825 had been

bustling with a cook and her assistant and assorted serving staff,

was inaccessible and dark, the Boswell-Thorpes having installed a

much more convenient—and functional—kitchen upstairs, beside

the breakfast room.

Annoyed, and still frustrated, Charlie made her way back to the

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main floor and outside, to see if Mr. Deeley was in the big marquee

tent that had been erected next to the manor’s west wing.

* * *

Shaun had, in fact, located both his father and Tony Quinn. His

father had been lingering in a hallway in the west wing of the

manor, between the dining room with the sitting room. It was not

so much a connecting passage as a room of its own, with a lavish

oriental Axminster carpet of blue, red and gold, and ceiling-to-floor

leaded windows embedded with patterns of stained glass and,

occupying pride of place, several full sets of armour, assembled and

erected as if ready to do battle.

“But this is marvellous,” William said, spying Shaun as he

entered from the dining room. “This is beyond anything I have

ever beheld…if only Lord and Lady Ellington could be here to

share my wonder.”

“I suspect,” Shaun observed, “that if Lord and Lady Ellington

were here, they might be confounded by your mingling with the

master and mistress and their numerous guests.”

“As am I,” William confessed. “I find I am awkward in their

presence. I would feel far more at home below stairs with the

servants.”

“However, there are no servants,” Shaun provided, “other than

Mr. Brindlesworth, the butler, who is on loan from the Boswell-

Thorpes’s house in London.”

“This is by far the most discomforting of my experiences,” said

William, shaking his head. “No staff and no household routine. No

servants to look after the daily needs of the family. A complete

absence of structure. I have met people tonight who, in my time,

would be considered beneath contempt. And yet they are treated

with reverence by ladies and gentlemen of good breeding, with

titles, education and property.”

“These are all things which I have, myself, also observed,”

Shaun replied. “And my reactions, at first, were very much the

same as yours. But I have grown accustomed to the discrepancies.

It is refreshing once again to be reminded of the time I originally

came from—and for this, I owe you many thanks.”

“You are most welcome,” William said, surprised.

“Do you know where Mr. Quinn is?”

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“I do, in fact. Would you like me to take you to him?”

* * *

Tony Quinn was outside.

William led Shaun up the grand staircase to the manor’s second

floor, and then back into the building’s west wing. Here, there was

a narrow hallway which Shaun vaguely recalled, led to several of

the manor’s grand bedrooms. He could see one of these through

its open door, its walls and ceiling painted white, its fireplace

surrounded by exquisite white stone.

Halfway along the narrow hallway was another door, which,

upon investigation, opened onto a little set of stone steps leading

up to the roof.

Tony was sitting near its furthest edge, well concealed, with a

view overlooking the top of the marquee tent and the roofless,

brick-walled enclosure Shaun recognized as the kitchen garden,

where Monsieur Duran the Lesser had often taken great delight in

shooting at hedgehogs.

Tony put his finger to his lips as William and Shaun

approached, cautioning them into silence and, furthermore, into

lowered visibility.

Shaun crouched down—as did William—and, after ensuring

that he was nowhere near any point that might precipitate his

falling, peered carefully over the edge.

“Surveillance,” Tony provided, in a whisper. “I’m pleased

you’ve arrived safely. Now do me a favour and go away.”

* * *

Shaun had done as he was told.

He had gone back downstairs—in the company of William—

with the thought that he might try to locate Jackie Lewis and

perhaps prevent her from making the gravest mistake of her life.

She was not, however, anywhere to be found.

With William, he wandered again into the drawing room, whose

population had been diminished somewhat by an announcement

that the concert promised by Arabella’s brother was about to begin

in the tent outside. Indeed, Shaun could hear noises which

indicated that the band was preparing to play—portions of tunes, a

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crashing of drums and cymbals, a testing of microphones and the

boxes which amplified the sounds made by the guitars.

Those few left behind in the drawing room seemed to be

imbued with a sort of lethargy—perhaps caused by an

overindulgence in the special tobacco Mrs. Collins had described

earlier. The music on the record player had ceased.

“Not interested in the goings on outside?” a woman inquired,

causing Shaun to turn around in order to attach a face to the voice.

It was not an English voice. In fact, it sounded quite American.

The American voice belonged to a woman with an abundance

of flax-coloured hair which seemed to have been artificially built up

over the crown of her head. She was wearing a bright red silk cape,

beneath which was a black satin floor-length gown.

“Layla,” she said. “Layla Hancock.”

“I am…John Drake. And this is my colleague…”

“Phinneas Phelps,” William provided. “We are honoured to

make your acquaintance.”

“Mr. Drake and Mr. Phelps. So pleased to meet you as well. I’ve

been hired by Miss Jessop to provide…amusements…to the more

discerning of her gentlemen guests. Might my services be of

interest to either of you…?”

Shaun looked at his father.

“I think not,” he decided, “but we are very grateful for your

kind attention nonetheless.”

Miss Hancock seemed disappointed.

But then she brightened.

“Perhaps then you’d like a little nibble of my confectionary?”

She produced a square of cake, dark brown in colour, and

finished with a layer of what appeared to be chocolate icing.

“Many thanks,” William said, “but, alas, cake tends to be a

disagreeable companion to the fluctuating state of my digestion.”

“It’s not cake,” Miss Hancock whispered, conspiratorially. “It’s

called a brownie. Nobody’s heard of it over here but it’s one of my

specialties. And it’s a very special brownie.” She lifted the square to

Shaun’s lips. “Go on. Give it a try.”

Shaun did. And found it altogether delightful, although it left a

slightly peculiar aftertaste which reminded him, unaccountably, of

freshly mown hay.

“Good, isn’t it?”

“Very good,” he agreed. “Unusual.”

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“Have the rest of it. I’ve got lots more.”

Shaun accepted the offer and sat down on the sofa so as to

avoid dropping crumbs on the expensive carpet.

Somewhere in the distance, he could hear the beginnings of

Giles Jessop’s pop band’s concert. He listened, finding the tune

pleasing to his ears.

“I shall return to the armoury,” his father decided, “if you have

no objections.”

“None whatsoever,” Shaun replied, amused, applying himself

again to the baked chocolate square.

William’s place on the sofa was taken by Miss Hancock, who

seemed also to be very taken by the music of Brighton Peer.

There passed a period of time, perhaps thirty minutes, during

which Shaun engaged Miss Hancock in polite and trivial

conversation, although none of it was particularly enlightening or,

in truth, of much interest to him.

And then, Shaun saw Jackie. She was wearing a plain black dress

with a white collar and long sleeves with white cuffs. Her legs were

encased in black stockings and in her hair she wore black ribbons.

She walked into the drawing room and lingered for a moment,

observing who was there. And then, obviously seeing no one she

recognized, she turned, and left.

Shaun got to his feet.

“Hey lover, where you going?” Miss Hancock reached out to

take his hand.

“I must excuse myself. Please forgive me.”

He tried to pull free, but Miss Hancock would not let go.

“Stay awhile, lover. I’m all on my own here.”

Shaun managed to release himself and made for the door. But

he was too late. Jackie had disappeared. He looked to the right and

to the left. She was gone.

And something else was happening. He felt most peculiar.

Things were slowing down, as if he was mired in jelly. It seemed as

if his mind was occupying one particular place, while his body—his

hands and feet, his legs, his arms—were most definitely elsewhere,

and not connected in any logical way whatsoever.

“How are you feeling, lover?”

It was Miss Hancock again, her voice dancing around his head.

It took Shaun a few moments to process what she had said.

“I am…content,” he said.

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“That’s the secret of my special brownies. They make you very

very very content. And I do like to make my gentleman

acquaintances happy. Why don’t you come with me?”

Shaun wanted to object. He knew he ought to. He was acutely

aware that Miss Hancock’s suggestion would not be condoned by

Mrs. Collins, and that he needed to be here and alert and most of

all, locating Jackie Lewis…and not being led by the hand to the

servants’ staircase, and most certainly not allowing himself to be

taken down into the cellar.

Where Miss Hancock was leading him was familiar. She

produced a key and unlocked the door. It was the door to his old

bedroom, the one where he had slept every night while in the

employ of Monsieur Duran as his head groom.

“Have you never tried hash before, Mr. Drake?” she inquired.

“I have not,” said Shaun. His voice was somewhere else as well,

and most definitely had not come from anywhere within his body.

“Mmmm,” said Miss Hancock. “A virgin. My favourite.

Welcome to my dungeon, Mr. Virgin.”

The room was unmistakably his, but unrecognizable. Gone

were his upright wooden wardrobe, his books and his framed

paintings of horses and the brass harness decorations he had used

as paperweights. There was a bed. It was not his simple bed, but an

elaborately large one, with four brass posts, laid with a black satin

sheet and a similarly encased pillow. And it appeared to be the only

article of furniture there aside from a small round table and a

candelabrum, its five branches fitted with white wax candles.

Miss Hancock switched off the electric light—an embellishment

that had been added in his absence—and lit the candelabrum, then

closed and secured the door. And then she kissed him, quite

forwardly, and loosened the tie that Mrs. Collins had expertly

knotted for him earlier in the evening, and slid it over his head.

“Would you like to be flogged, my lovely virgin?” she

whispered, into his ear.

“No, I would not,” Shaun replied.

Miss Hancock removed her red satin cape and stepped out of

her gown and revealed what she was wearing underneath—a black

corset and stockings and suspenders, very similar to the stockings

and suspenders and corset Mrs. Collins had donned in Mr.

Tavistock's gentlemen's club, which were now causing some

familiar stirrings within him. “Are you absolutely sure about

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that…?”

“I have been flogged in the past and I am not overly anxious to

suffer the punishment again,” he objected, finding it increasingly

more difficult to put into words what was drifting through his

mind. “Especially as I have done nothing to deserve it.”

Miss Hancock bestowed another kiss upon him and undid the

buttons of his shirt.

“But you and I both know you’ve been a very, very naughty

boy,” she whispered, slipping his shirt down and removing it,

expertly. “And you know what happens to naughty boys.”

She turned him around.

“Oh!” she said, surprised. “You really have been flogged!

You’ve got scars.”

“I would not tell you an untruth.”

“How many lashes?” She began to count them, touching each

faint mark with a curious finger.

“A dozen,” Shaun supplied, “and one for good measure.

However, the instrument of punishment was a cat, so you may

multiply that figure by nine.”

“You have no idea how much this turns me on,” Miss Hancock

whispered, kissing each mark on his back. “I’m going to strip you

naked and tie you to that bed and have my wicked wicked way with

you.”

She turned him around again and pushed him onto the bed,

face up, and had fastened his wrists to each of the brass posts

before he could object. Now she was undoing his trousers…they

were off…and what he was wearing beneath…and his boots and

his socks…and his ankles were tied to the posts at the foot of the

bed…and it had all happened in an instant, a completely irrationally

slow instant.

“And now,” said Miss Hancock, reaching for the candelabrum,

“I’m going to visit every inch of your exquisite body, top to

bottom, and…perhaps…drop a tiny splash of candle wax along the

way…to heighten your senses…to explore the pain…”

As she tipped the candles, there was a knock upon the door, an

urgent-sounding rat-a-tat.

“What?” Miss Hancock shouted in an annoyed voice, replacing

the candelabrum upon the little table.

Shaun recognized the gentleman’s voice instantly. “Might I

inquire as to whether you are entertaining Mr. Drake within?”

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“We’re busy!”

But William would not be dissuaded.

“I must insist. Mr. Drake’s presence is urgently required

upstairs.”

“By who?”

“By his good wife, Mrs. Drake, who is the mother of his four

children, the youngest of which suffers from an ailment which has

worsened this past hour. She has come from the village. He must

hasten to his home immediately.”

Miss Hancock clambered off the bed and opened the door.

“For real?” she said.

William shielded his eyes, both from the sight of Miss Hancock

in her revealing costume, and the sight of Shaun, completely

unclothed and bound to the bed.

“The child is feverish and the physician has been summoned.

Mrs. Drake has collapsed from the strain but has been brought

back to consciousness with a judicious dose of sal volatile.”

“OK,” said Miss Hancock. “You win. This is too weird.”

She shut the door and quickly unfastened Shaun’s wrists and

ankles.

“Just my luck,” she said, handing him his clothes. “Maybe next

time, hey?”

* * *

William was waiting for Shaun beside the servants’ staircase.

“I apologise for the interruption however I observed your

departure with Miss Hancock and thought it wise to intervene.”

“I am indebted to you,” Shaun replied, heavily. “Have you seen

Mrs. Collins…?”

“I have not. But I promise I shall safeguard your secret, Mr.

Patrick. Shall we rejoin the party?”



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About Winona Kent



Winona Kent was born in London, England. She immigrated to Canada with her parents at age 3, and grew up in Regina, Saskatchewan, where she received her BA in English from the University of Regina. After settling in Vancouver, she graduated from UBC with an MFA in Creative Writing. More recently, she received her diploma in Writing for Screen and TV from Vancouver Film School.

Winona has been a temporary secretary, a travel agent and the Managing Editor of a literary magazine. Her writing breakthrough came many years ago when she won First Prize in the Flare Magazine Fiction Contest with her short story about an all-night radio newsman, Tower of Power. More short stories followed, and then novels: Skywatcher, The Cilla Rose Affair, Cold Play, Persistence of Memory and In Loving Memory. Marianne’s Memory is Winona’s sixth novel.

Winona currently lives in Vancouver and works as a Graduate Programs Assistant at the University of British Columbia.



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Friday, January 20, 2017

Sale! Code Prodigal (Cast Your Cares) by K.D. Harp


Code Prodigal


BOONE JUST WANTED TO GET HOME…

A Marine thinks a lot about home when serving back to back tours overseas. Home is supposed to be safe, full of love and laughter, but Lt. Col. Ballestra’s care packages stopped coming months ago. His sister and niece sought shelter under his roof when her ex vowed revenge for her court testimony so, he expects a bit of drama, but not a near kidnapping before his duffel even hits the floor!

HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS…

While overseas, Boone’s relied on long distance help from Savannah’s favorite teacher, Brianna Parrish. Brianna’s had his family’s back when Boone couldn’t, but now that mafia in-law Hadrian Royle is stepping up the heat, she’s put her life on the line for young Savannah.

Back home, Boone learns knowing 100 ways to subdue an adversary is useless when it comes to your basic preschool princess wrangling but Brianna's insights console his traumatized niece. She decodes parts of Boone he's kept camouflaged from the world (& himself) almost as easily and even teaches the man with a boatload of concerns to 'cast his cares' on God, (which sounds just dandy, until Brianna foils the mob’s plans one time too many & puts herself in their cross-hairs.)

THE HEART ENDURES ALL, SACRIFICES ALL…

Brianna's too important to Boone to risk further, so he pushes away the love he’s lacked all his life in order to keep her safe. It's the perfect plan, (if only she were the kind of gal to abandon the people she loves).

When she doesn't, Brianna’s marked for death, and Boone will trade his freedom for hers in a heartbeat---
----which it just might cost them.



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The Atlanta native is a graduate of Georgia State University, and loves truly smart female leads, so most of hers will MacGyver their way out of some sort of situation (whether it's jury-rigging a flamethrower with kitchen supplies or finding new uses for a fire extinguisher to escape an inferno). Bored and dismayed by the trend in fiction to equate genuine love with the pale imitation of lust without personal investment, K.D. portrays people of character engaged with a world that lacks it. 

When they do it without losing the physical passion and sense of humor God would give to them, it's a total win.

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Wednesday, June 18, 2014

Read the first chapter of 'Girl Lost' by Nazarea Andrews



BLURB:

Northern was supposed to be a fresh start—a place where people didn’t know who I was or how I had spent years in and out of mental institutes. People didn't know about my parents death or the island no one heard of. But when Peter sits next to me in lit class, I can’t stop the memories, and I don’t want to. He looks too much like the boy from the island, and despite my best intentions, coaxes my secrets from me.

He’s gorgeous, irresistible, a little mad, and completely lost—we are a pair of broken cogs in a world neither of us truly fits into. And he listens when I talk, about the past and the terrifying future. He is somehow gentle and fierce, heartbreaking in his devotion and savage in his defense.

When Belle, his best friend, shows up, pale and lovely and sick, Peter pulls away from me, a startling withdrawal. It’s a relationship that scares and confuses me. She is at times warm and friendly, and other times is violent and unpredictable.

Peter says that he wants me, but refuses to let himself get close. And there are secrets, surrounding both of us, that border on nightmares. As the memories close in, as Belle gets sicker and more violent, I’m torn between what is true and what I believe, and what this magical boy knows about my mysterious past.

*Suitable for 17+. A romantic contemporary retelling of the boy who never grew up.


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Chapter 1.

There are a few thing you should know about me, to start. I am Gwendolyn, the eldest daughter of Piers Barrie. I am a college freshman, and an heiress.
And, I am quite mad.

Freshman orientation is a joke. A mass of wannabe jocks and pretty boys waiting for fraternities to swoop in and give them a team to play for. Catty girls with perfectly styled tresses and designer handbags and a superior air of injured dignity. Gatherings of this sort are beneath girls like them.

I stand in the doorway, uncomfortable. Take a deep breath and paste a fake smile on.

This is my fresh start. Here, no one knows Gwen Barrie. They don't know about the Second Star or my parents.

They don't know about the time I spent in Pembrooke. That is the most important thing. I clench my fist, steadying my breath.

Someone bumps me from behind, and I shift a little as my younger brother steps up. He eyes me worriedly, and I smile, softlyI’m fine, Micah.”

“Darling, you are the furthest thing from fine I’ve ever seen. I’m still not sure why Grayson said this was a good idea.”

I flinch, furious that he would even mention that. “You promised,” I say stiffly.

I stalk away from him before he can respond, weaving through the crowd. Northern University is small, one of the reasons Grayson selected it. It’s perfect for me.

The dean is finally silent, and I drift through the crowd toward a group of girls who look friendly enough that I’m not ready to bolt. Micah gives me a little space, but I can feel him watching me from the corner of the room. He’s drawn into a conversation by a pretty blonde, and I release a sigh of relief.

Micah isn’t like me—he’s comfortable in groups like this. He would thrive at a larger school, but he wouldn’t leave me. After almost ten years of taking care of me, he wasn’t going to trust me alone at college.

“Excuse me,” a male voice says, and I twist. The speaker is a tall, slender young man in a white button down and black jeans, with dark hair, murky blue eyes, and a smile that makes me shiver.
I shove the memories down and force a polite smile. “Sorry.”

“No need to apologize. I didn’t want to startle you. Are you a transfer?”

I flush—this is a question I’ve been dreading. “No,” I mumble, looking down into my toes. “I deferred after high school.”

A smile tickles his lips, and for a moment, he looks less menacing. Less like a memory.

Across the room, a flash of movement catches my eyes, and I pale as I see the guy. He’s surrounded by other students, and I only see a glimpse—but I take a few stumbling steps in his direction, my heart pounding.
No. No. I can’t do this—I refuse to believe this. Not today, not here. I turn away and collide with Micah. “What’s wrong?” he asks, his voice low and worried.

“I need to go,” I whisper. His eyebrows inch up, that familiar worried look. My brother is too young to look that old.

"Come on, then," he says immediately.

"Stay," I order. "You were having fun - and I'm fine. I just need some air."

His expression is one of disbelief, so I give him a smile, a real smile. “Promise.”

I squeeze his hand lightly and head to the exit. I don’t look back—I don’t know if that’s evidence I’m getting stronger or if I’m too scared to chance it.

I wander through campus until I’m at the Cliff. One of the reasons Grayson and I chose Northern was the seaside location. I need to be close to the water—as terrifying as it can be, I can’t imagine life without the steady throb of the ocean and the relentless whisper of waves. I stand on the Cliff and stare out at the wind swept sea, and I let the dangerous memories take me under.

I see him everywhere. In other patients, at Pembroke. At school, when Grayson thinks I’m sane enough for it. Laughing cat eyes and a shock of red hair, slanted, sly features. He isn’t the same as anyone else, and I can’t shake him.

They say I imagined it.

But they’re wrong. I saw him again, and it’s been six years. Micah is talking to Grayson and Aunt Jane. I know what they want to do. I’m so tired of years spent Pembroke.

A flash of red, a crooked smile from under the tilted cap. I shudder, and for the first time, I turn away.

I pretend.

I chose to not believe.

And ignore the flash of angry hurt that fills his eyes as I focus on my brother.

“What are you doing?”

I jerk around to face the unfriendly voice. A girl is standing a few feet away from me, her eyes narrowed. She looks annoyed, and I shrug helplessly. “Nothing. Just…um. Who are you?”

She huffs. “Orchid Lewis.”

The name tugs at my memory, and I frown. “Have we met?”

“No,” she says abruptly. “But if you’re Gwendolyn Barrie, I’m your roommate.”

I perk up. I’ve been looking forward to meeting the face on the other side of the email exchange. She seemed polite enough, then, if not incredibly warm. Now she’s staring at me like I’m crazy—I know those looks, because they’ve been directed at me for so long.

“You shouldn’t stand so close to the cliff, you know. It’s dangerous.”

Understanding sweeps me, and I flush. “Oh. I’m not—I wasn’t...” I trail off as her expression turns vaguely curious. “I wasn’t paying attention,” I finish lamely.

She stares at me for a long moment, and then, “Did you make it to orientation?”

I nod. “For a few minutes. Then I got out of there. It was too crowded.”

“Our class is only, like, two hundred people.”

I know that, and I’m annoyed that she feels the need to point it out. “I don’t like crowds,” I snap and turn away from the cliff, stalking toward the dorm hall. Orchid trails along behind me, a drifting presence.

"Was there anything we actually needed to pay attention to?"

I slide a glance at her, and she shrugs. "Hanging out with a bunch of over-eager jocks isn't my idea of a good way to spend my last day before class."

I laugh. "Nothing we haven't been told in the admin packets. You came for a tour, right?" She nods, brushing a lock of straight black hair from her eyes. “Then you’ll be fine. We both already have our schedules.”

“Great.” She fidgets as I flash my key card and the door buzzes open. She follows me through the empty hall, pass the elegant, overdone commons room. She laughs a little. “What do they think we’re going to do in there, have high tea?”

I giggle, and her eyebrows wing up, like birds independent of the rest of her face. The rest of her expression remains immobile, but those thin dark eyebrows express a wide array of emotion.

I’m staring. I shouldn’t stare. This isn’t Pembrooke—staring gets noticed here.

Our room is on the third floor, with no elevator. The dorms of Northern are lovely, all cream brick and slate siding and soaring arches and columns. They claim to be original buildings, from when the university was founded in the mid-1800s. But they lack the basic amenities of modern structures. Like properly sealed windows and efficient heating. And elevators.

Orchid reaches our door first and lets it swing open. I’m a little embarrassed by how barren it is—I’ve seen the other girls’ rooms, half glimpses snatched through the open doors, and I haven’t done anything like them. There is nothing to say I’m here, aside from four large boxes and three suitcases. There are no pictures hanging, no personalized touches. I haven’t unpacked.

Part of me doesn’t believe that Grayson will let me stay. I’m an adult, and Aunt Jane can’t do anything to force me back into institutional care, but she controls Barrie Enterprises.

I grit my teeth and smile at Orchid. “You can have your pick,” I say, waving at the empty beds. She takes the bed to the right, and I move my stuff to the left, situating my desk to face the window. I push it open, and she gives me a curious look as the sound of the wind and the ocean seeps in. “I like the fresh air,” I say simply. She doesn’t comment, and I stare at my untouched boxes. Nod to myself, firmly.

I can’t screw this up. It’s my chance to prove to Micah and Grayson and Jane—to everyone who matters—that I’m not insane. I haven’t seen the Boy in months—not counting this afternoon, and I can dismiss that, because I didn’t see him. It was a boy, a normal student, a redhead, but not the Boy.

With that thought firmly in mind, I busy myself unpacking the boxes, working alongside Orchid in companionable silence.






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NOTE FROM THE AUTHOR:


FOREVER FOUND, a GIRL LOST novella, will be released this fall and here is the blurb for that book.

FOREVER FOUND BLURB:

Forever Found, A Girl Lost novella, will be released Fall 2014.

I never wanted to grow up. Until Her. I would follow her anywhere, through anything. But what do you do when the one thing you've ever wanted refuses to believe you exist?
I thought finding Gwendy would be the hard part. Convincing her that it was real. But now that she knows--the hard part is just beginning.
This--Northern, New York--it's not my place. But the Island isn't hers. How can we find a future if we can't find a place to be together?